Bun in the Oven

For me one of the hardest parts about this disease and my choice in how to treat it is the outcome it may provide for my chance of having a baby. My husband and I dream often about getting pregnant and raising a child. I am really worried that getting pregnant might make my condition worse and if I do get pregnant am I going to be able to get an epidural? I have heard that initial Tarlov symptoms can be brought on by an epidural so it only makes sense to conclude that it would worsen symptoms already present.

I did read on one of the forums about at least two ladies that have had babies while suffering from this disease or are pregnant and they claim that it is really no different then it was before they got pregnant. The real kicker though, is the posts from people who already have little kids when their symptoms begin and the pain in their voices at not being able to share, actively, in their children's lives. That just sounds like a recipe for severe depression!

I already feel so bad for my husband that he is having to deal with a wife whose life revolves around her saccrum, can I really take away his chance at being a Dad just because of my pain? That seems so selfish and I already feel so selfish in the first place!

For now, we are playing it by ear. The ultimate goal is to get rid of this damn thing with my diet or make it asymptomatic and then begin our life as a threesome. I understand that I may have to stay on this diet indefinately in order to keep it asymptomatic. But, what's the worse case scenario? I am forcd to be healthy for the rest of my life? A hell of a lot better then the alternative, I think...