Hindsight

 For some reason, the day I was diagnosed with Tarlov Cyst Disease I decided to save my horoscope in a notepad. I read my horoscope on beliefnet.com religiously (no pun intended!) and it is always so dead on accurate it can be mind blowing, really. On this day, I couldn't have known what was ahead of me and I couldn't mentally digest what the horoscope was trying to tell me. I just came across it and nearly began crying as I read it. It reads:

Sagittarius (November 22 - December 21)
10/13/2010
The truth could turn into a storm today, and if it does, it's probably not as bad as you think. This could be your big chance to see things as they are, rather than as you wish them to be. When your dreams diverge from reality, it's crucial to know the details so you can make intelligent decisions. Pay attention to the little signs as you look for clues about what to do next.

Crazy, right?! There is no way this would have meant anything to me before, because I was too busy mourning my life and trying to figure out what the hell had just happened to me. Now it almost encompasses every fiber of my journey thus far. I am really proud of all I have accomplished and sometimes I forget to pat myself on the back for it. I am so focused on the finish line taking place when I am cured and not a moment sooner that I sometimes forget to celebrate all of the finish lines I cross along the way. Not that this is a journey that will every actually have a 'finish', the finish line should- and will from now on- represent the accomplishment of another goal. Pat, pat Cheryl...