De-Flaming with Mother Nature

Oh sweet Mother Nature...you sly little devil you! You have done it once more! Last night I went to my little nutrition shop in town and picked up the following:

• Nature's Herbs Cat's Claw 500 mg
• Nature's Way Rosemary 400 mg
• Solaray Ginger Root 250 mg
• Nature's Plus Red Wine 500 mg (Polyphenols/phytonutrients)
• Solaray Milk Thistle 175 mg
• Twinlan B-50 Caps (Vitamin B Complex)

When I got home I took just one of each pill (less then required for some to give my stomach a chance to adjust). In hindsight I probably should have added them in a little slower and I shouldn't have taken Vit B so close to bedtime! But, the stomach upset was no big deal and faded by morning. Gues what else had faded by morning? My swelling is almost non-existent today! I began my morning as usual and then took my morning doses of the herbs and my pain is non-existent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is all so great and I am more then pleased with the results...obviously! What most excites me, other then being able to finally think about something other then pain, is that I know once the swelling stops the healing begins. If there is one thing my chiropractor told me that stuck, it's that. She would tell me every visit that it was imperative that I get the swelling down so that healing could take place. If it is still swelling, the 'wound' thinks it is still in the treatment process and never moves into healing. If I can keep the swelling down for a long time and keep stuffing my body with healing herbs, vitamins, nutrients, enzymes, probiotics, etc. then there is at least a chance that the cyst/nerve can begin to heal a little. I guess only time will tell.

This improvement came at just the right time because I had a really hard time at Wal-Mart last night. I get so emotional when I see all the mothers with their children walking around the store. I get scared that I won't be able to have that or that even if I can have children that I will be in so much pain that I can't push the buggie around with them. It gets really hard not to think negatively in public, right? Everywhere around you is remnants of your old life and the stuff you use to be able to do. Oh look there's a bicycle, oh look there's the gardening center, oh look there's pizza! The worse part, for me, is the different way everyone treats you in a wheelchair (especially if you appear healthy and are 26!). They treat me like I am some kid playing around in the wheelchairs and taking the use of them away from the 'real' handicap people that need them. I just have to remain confident in my body's abilities and I know I can make this work itself out, one way or another. The hell with what anybody else thinks! I have to remember not to lose myself in other people's opinions, whether it's regarding my health, treatment, or dreams.