The tide turns...

Something revelatory happened to me the other day and it has changed my mindset in a very positive way. I have been having all this discontent inside my head and it has been a huge source of anguish for me. I finally discovered what the source of the problem was. There was an ongoing struggle between the old me and the new me. The old me is upset because I am no longer as physically and emotionally free as I once was and this is hugely effecting all of the goals and dreams that the old me set for the future me. The problem is that nothing is taking into account the present me, which will ultimately effect the future me, regardless of what the old me wanted. Say that three times in row! This is invaluable information because it sets me free in many ways. I now have the insight needed to re-focus on what is going on now, not what I use to wish would be happening. This enables me to stop beating myself up for what I am not accomplishing and instead support myself in what I am accomplishing. My life has gone in a totally different direction and whose to say it's all bad? Only me...it is what you make of it. I sometimes forget to take a step back and be proud of all I have been able to accomplish this year. I quit drinking after 9 years straight, I quit smoking after 10 years, I went vegetarian, I began juicing every day, and most importantly, I discovered that I am at least a thousand times stonger then I ever thought I was. The amount of pain and mental torture I have been able to survive still amazes me! We are all truly capable of so much and we don't even realize it. Now that I do, it really helps to replenish hope in myself that I can beat this thing, one way or another.