The Health Trap

Help! I’m surrounded by kale and I can’t get to the powdered donuts! This, my friends, is now officially my motto. So, life has been real good. Things were cruising right along, so much so that I figured there couldn’t be any harm in having some pizza with my husband, a beer with my homie, cake with my nephew. You see where this is going, don’t you? When there isn’t some pressing matter (such as excruciating pain in my back) it is really, really freaking hard to motivate yourself to be healthy. My hat goes off to the people who are healthy for simply the sake of being healthy.  My little binging from here and there was no problem  for about a week or two and then the pain began to slowly creep its way back into my life. Little stuff; bloating, pressure, catches if I jumped up to quick, pain after walking, etc.  I knew at that point that I was going to have stay on this diet to control my symptoms. The good news is that once you get your motivation back it doesn’t take long for the symptoms to reside again. I would say it took only 3 or 4 days of going back to my healthy lifestyle before the symptoms went away again.

The real kicker here is that if you don’t want the surgery or the risk then it seems you have to adapt to this lifestyle permanently.  I actually have always imagined myself as being one of those health freaks, who looks smoking hot and snacks on things like seaweed wraps and exercises on vacation..you know the type.  Of course, I always dream about being that person while throwing back a keg and tossing fried potato skins in my mouth (mmmm…potato skins). I guess it is really time for me to step up to the plate. I thought it was so freaking hard to do this diet originally and that was only suppose to be temporary while I figured out what my options were medically. I now see that this is going to be my real test. Choosing to ignore my mischievous brain and instead democratically choose what is best for my body as a whole  at all times (all in favor of pizza say ‘I’, all in favor of spinach say ‘I’…I bet you only had one body part choose the pizza…damn it!). Wish me luck, I’m going to war with all I’ve ever known and all I’ve ever been told…and only one of us can prevail.